So here we are… 2007. I have already submitted the 40 page draft of my first assignment with the final submission and international module exam due on Thursday.

I haven’t posted anything in a while, as I am unsure about the direction I want to take with this space. Frankly I am somewhat bored with it. Other than the 1000+ comment spam I receive daily, I am not sure how interesting anyone else finds it. I have been rather ambivalent on if I should shut it down or change my presentation style. As with personalities I realize that perfection can be rather boring. Not that I claim that any of the material on this site is perfect, just that I think I put to much effort into writing posts. People tend to find interacting with raw material more stimulating than with over-processed stuff. So for a little while starting with this post, I think I’ll write shorter and more pieces of things I am currently thinking about as opposed to things I have thought through and see how I like that.

Last year I had a “micro relationship” with a Japanese woman who I have known for some time. It ended up being a spectacular crash and burn disaster- we both turned out to be flakes and it resulted in mutual resentment. I was willing to sacrifice my personal integrity and got deservingly punished for it. I’m still having trouble getting over it which kinda sucks, but it was a valuable lesson learned that kicked off a new self-realization about social dynamics.

The seduction community would classify me as the average frustrated chump (or a nice guy in conventional terms). As well intentioned as my female friends are by telling me I am great just the way I am and oppose any change, being the nice guy up front is exactly the problem. You have to challenge people before allowing them to see that part of you or the real you. Like men that do not really respect promiscuous woman even if they are equally so, woman do not truly respect men who would give up their hearts without a challenge. Everyone likes to work for the treasure.

Naturally I have become rather skeptical about the traditional approach and have started doing other social experiments. Being aloof, playful and willing to lose the things you wish to attract seems to be quite a successful way of luring people into your reality.

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